Weight Issues
Last week, I finally found the time (and the interest!) to weigh myself after 48 years of not stepping on the scale! Hah! I know I am gaining weight lately - either that, or all my pants have shrunk slowly but surely over time. I'd like to believe it is the latter, but reality stares me in the face whenever I look at myself in the mirror. Holy crap, what I see is definitely not the ME that I used to be before I got pregnant and gave birth to Eowyn. To rub it in, Dan fished out a photo of me taken in Davao when we first met. I was wearing this tight, clingy blouse and hip-hugging pants that showed off my tiny waist and curves! Arrrgghh! It pains me to look at that picture, honestly. Really, where did that girl go? I never thought of myself as having a particularly great body, but looking at that picture, damn... I have to tell myself I looked a lot better then! How could I not think that when I am still dealing with post-partum body issues?! My pregnancy tummy still has not gone away and my hips (and butt) are as wide as flying saucers. Unfortunately, since Eowyn is not breastfeeding anymore, my boobs have gone back to their normal miniscule size. Heavy in the middle and light at the top, my body is now a far cry from the one that I had before. Ah, well. My only - and best - consolation is that Dan tells me he likes my body better now: no longer girl-thin, but more womanly. Yah, right! *rolls eyes* What are husbands for if they don't tell you things you love to hear?! I promised myself that I will lose some weight... hopefully, hopefully! I am already cutting down on my soda intake, but that damn vending machine just a few feet from my space in the office is truly testing my resolve! Perhaps I should also exercise more, and eat healthier food too. But can I ever say no to chocolates... and ice cream??? Hmmmm. I guess I really should not obsess about my weight. I am fat, alright, but I am not that fat! At 118 pounds, I guess I am still okay. I am not overwight, and my body mass index, at least, is still within the normal range. I just don't ever want to be one of those women who refuse to tell people how much they weigh, or how old they are. Oh, and by the way, I'm turning 30 this year but I'm proud of it!
May, that BMI can be misleading. I was still within my BMI yet my body didn't feel right, especially since there were (naks, past tense daw) love handles to remind me daily. A healthy BMI can range between 1-25 pounds difference. Btw, I am one of those women who do not give away my weight since I am taller than your average filipina my ideal weight is heavier than most filipinas and from experience a lot of filipinas don't take that into consideration and can be quite tactless. I don't have any problem with my age though. I'm 25. 12 years ago haha.
Posted by: geri | January 22, 2008 08:42 PM
ayay! u remind me, hehehe, mg-30 n man diay ta karong tuiga oi!!
Posted by: jingz | February 3, 2008 04:55 PM